It's been almost a month and everything I've wanted to blog about I haven't really been able to get pictures together yet, so here's some things I have been thinking about.
1) - Potty training - after my Huggies Potty Dance Party I started to wonder whether Sydney is ready to start training. She always tells me when she starts to go potty, but never before. Shes gone on her potty seat a few times, but I have to remember to take her. I'm worried that if I just ignore her telling me shes going then she'll go back to not noticing, however she's not quite ready to hold it and go on the potty all time. Any thoughts?
2) - Two - Sydney will be two in about five days. It seems like its been a long time since she was a baby, but not very long since she was turning one. The last year has flown by. I'm still undecided about what we should do on her actual birthday and struggling with the idea of having to more real parenting rather than just caretaking. One thing I know is we're gonna learn a lot in the next few years and try to be humble enough to recognize direction when its given.
3) - La Grande - As things in our life are changing, I've been reflecting on La Grande. We really have settled in to a nice little routine and life here. I know I said it when I left Hawaii, but I think it would be hard to find an awesome group of friends another place. I still stand by Hawaii being the best place to ever live and the best decision we've made up to that point in our marriage, but it was a different stage of life as well. For young motherhood and the end of school, La Grande has been picture perfect. I am so grateful for all our friends and sad that just as we keep making more things are starting to change. I'm torn between my itching feet to move on with life and the idea that we've gotten so comfortable here. I feel like on any given day I have a list of people I'd love to talk to, hang out with, or who could help me with anything I needed. I love that security.
4) - Baby - Ever since my miscarriage in October, I've been back and forth. Over and over again, we've felt like yes this is the right time, but still it hasn't happened yet. How do you tell the difference between your own worries and a geniune maybe its better to wait right now? (FYI: this particular questions is a hypothetical question... I like my blog to be a family journal with real events/tests in our lives but I'm not asking for an answer) Sydney is getting older, but my health hasnt been all that great and Andy might not be around a lot in the near future. So I'm stuck wondering what the future holds and trying to hear what we are really supposed to do.
